I seem to do a lot of thinking when I put my make up on in the morning…probably because it takes me a long time to achieve the ‘I woke up like this’ look. This morning, somewhere between foundation and concealer the reality of the situation finally sank in - I am leaving, today, to fly across the world and I don’t know when I am coming back.
By the time I got to mascara, the nerves had well and truly settled in. I realised however, that I am not scared about going somewhere new or going on my own, I am scared of what I am leaving behind. It is easy to get lost in everyday life, overwhelmed by responsibilities and comforted by the familiarity of routine. We lose consciousness of what matters to us the most and even who matters to us the most. It is only human after all, to rely on the fact that ‘One day’ we will do, say or be all the things we want and with the illusion that our time is limitless, we continue down the path of what I like to call ‘Passive living’. It is days like today, when you are forced to stop, take a breath and observe your life with open eyes, that you realise how much you take for granted.
Next came the blusher - I am leaving, today, to fly across the world and I don’t know when I am coming back. That thought kept going round and round in my head, putting everything into perspective. A lot of people come and go throughout your life, shaping you as a person, often in the subtlest of ways. Similarly, you will touch and shape other people’s lives, hopefully always for the better. I am grateful for all the people who have helped me become the person I am today. Starting with my family, who have given me all the love and support you could ever need. The people I have worked with for the last 3 years, who have taught me so much and have endured my daily chatter and awful singing. All my dear friends who have listened to me, encouraged me and made me laugh more times than I could possibly remember. I am grateful for every single one of you and I will miss you all very much.
Lip balm - I am leaving, today, to fly across the world and I don’t know when I am coming back. I feel so privileged to be able to say those words when so many others can only, have only or will only dream of doing so. For this reason, I will make the most of this amazing opportunity and will feel nothing but gratitude for all the magical moments I have no doubt to experience over the coming months. When I look behind me all I see is a happy life full of wonderful people who I can’t wait to see again and when I look ahead of me what I see is an incredible adventure I can’t wait to begin.
I am leaving, today, to fly across the world and I don’t know when I am coming back. So to all the people in my life, thank you so much for being so wonderful, goodbye for now and I will see you again soon.